illusions.

a woman's intuition never lies but when your self-esteem isn’t where it needs to be, it can be very deceitful by creating fictional feelings.

less is more.

i'm embarking on something new.

i'm willing to try this out for as long as i can and see where it takes me.

about a week ago, i took my daughter bike riding in prospect park. we laughed. we fell. she cried. ate italian icees. rode on the carousel. fed birds. hung out near the dog beach. it was great. i've been embracing life's simple abundances a lot more lately.

joyful simplicities go a long way.

for real.

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hand for you.

ilovethissong.

perfect moments.

No one is perfect, but do you believe in perfect moments? I didn't -- until the past two nights.

They're out there. Although they may not last too long, they come - maybe even far and few between - but when they do come, the only thing to do is seize the moment. I did and still am.

message in disguise.

I

YOU.

bubbly.

this is how I'm feelin' today... and pretty much every other day...

but there's something about today that just has me extra 'bubbly'...

[love her songs]

xoxoxoxo...

laughter is therapy.

[pic taken earlier this year]

My daughter and I had a moment this morning while eating breakfast. Following this moment, we broke out into laughter and all typical lackluster Monday morning feelings flew out the window, as she instantly reminded me of my importance in her life. It's the little things...

“We've got to learn hard things in our lifetime, but it's love that gives you the strength. It's being nice to people and having a lot of fun and laughing harder than anything, hopefully every single day of your life.”

-Drew Barrymore

fruitful love.

" Love - a wildly misunderstood although highly desirable malfunction of the heart which weakens the brain, causes eyes to sparkle, cheeks to glow, blood pressure to rise and the lips to pucker." — Unknown

I won't hesitate...i'm yours.

luv this song.

love you dad.

Picture this:

You're 5 years-old and your Dad comes home drunk and starts throwing shit, yelling and beating on your Mom for no reason at all - something that occurred more than it didn't. While you grow up, you see that he's around, but not around ... If you get my gist. You see him frequently & he spends time with you, takes you places, but financially, mentally and somewhat physically, your Mother is struggling. She is struggling to put you through a private Elementary/Junior High School. Suddenly at the age of 11, your Dad decides to move to another state with his new wife. So not only is he not around, but he is still not helping your Mom. But she manages to put you through Elementary, JHS, High School & College.

You're an adult now and although you don't see your Dad too much, you speak to him often but you speak to him with so much sincerity and affection - as if he wasn't abusive at one point in his life and as if your Mother wasn't struggling, crying, & complaining about how hard it was to support you by herself - amongst other things.

My question is: Where does this deep-rooted love some girls have for an incomplete father come from? I'm not saying they shouldn't love him, but some people resent their absentee parent. Is it because a child is incognizant to the direct & indirect pain a father sometimes causes a mother? Is it because most absentee parents spoil their kids? Is it because a child knows her father's love is genuine but sometimes their priorities just aren't in order? What about the dad's personality ... let's say he is one of those Cliff Huxtable funny, easy-going and fun to be around dads.. do you think that clouds judgement, leading a child to grow up never seeing through the smoke and mirrors act?

What about when mom and dad speak like they are best friends ... Does it mean she forgot or forgave? Or both?

I wanna know if anyone experienced this or has some sort of reasoning for why this is -- I know there's some psychology behind it, as there is with almost everything else.

friday afternoon groove...

The week's already over and once again the weekend is upon us ... happy friday people, I'm in my friday afternoon groove.

Songs of the Moment:

"Burned by the fire

My love is blind

Can't you see my desire?

That's the way love goes

Like a moth to a flame

Burned by the fire

My love is blind

Can't you see my desire?"

Everything is Everything

"Everything is everything

What is meant to be, will be

After winter, must come spring

Change, it comes eventually"

I'm jamming ... lol.

feeling soulful... song of my mood.

Gotta love her ... she's amazing.

"Just like a star across my sky, Just like an angel off the page, You have appeared to my life, Feel like I'll never be the same, Just like a song in my heart, Just like oil on my hands, Honour to love you..

Still I wonder why it is, I don't argue like this, With anyone but you,We do it all the time, Blowing out my mind.

You've got this look I can't describe, You make me feel like I'm alive, When everything else is au fait, Without a doubt you're on my side, Heaven has been away too long, Can't find the words to write this song, Oh...Your love.

Still I wonder why it is, I don't argue like this, With anyone but you,We do it all the time, Blowing out my mind,

I have come to understand, The way it is, It's not a secret anymore, 'cause we've been through that before, From tonight I know that you're the only one, I've been confused and in the dark, Now I understand,

I wonder why it is,I don't argue like this, With anyone but you, I wonder why it is, I wont let my guard down, To anyone but you, We do it all the time, Blowing out my mind,

Just like a star across my sky, Just like an angel off the page, You have appeared to my life, Feel like I'll never be the same, Just like a song in my heart, Just like oil on my hands."